I have GOT to be one of the most indecisive people I know. I'm everywhere! As soon as I arrive in one place I'm already planning my escape route to another. What's up with that?
Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I'm a hard core Sagittarius who is always looking for her next great adventure. Or perhaps it's because I lack the ability to entertain myself and use moving around as a weird form of self amusement. Who knows.
Regardless, here's my current dilemma (Which, because I'm using this blog as a form of self-help therapy, hope to have solved by the end of this entry.) So here it goes:
My current dilemma is whether or not to relocate to Los Angeles OR to just stay in New York. And YES, I know I only got here like 3 weeks ago ... but the ONLY reason I'm in New York in the first place is to be on Broadway. That's it. Not to do regional theatre OR a small $200 a week show in some ho-dunk town in New Jersey, and DEFINITELY not to moonlight as a waitress (Which, I can tell you now... I would FAIL at. I simply lack the coordination to balance glasses and plates on a tray or to even memorize what people order. Also, did you know that to be a waitress in New York you must have previous experience waiting tables... IN New York?! So even though I have a college degree... I somehow lack the experience to be a waitress... WTF?! How hard can it be, really? And what makes waitressing in another state less qualifying than waitressing in New York?)... but back to the point...
So that's it. That's what I want to do. Just Broadway.
It's also a well known fact that Broadway auditions come in waves. So they're not exactly happening all the time. Like now, for instance. It's dead. Which is rather depressing for someone who doesn't even want to live in New York in the first place.
Nope. I'm a California girl, born and raised, who's ONLY reason for coming out to the East Coast is to work as a performer. Don't get me wrong though... I'm working my A** off to make my dreams come true... But if there are no auditions until March or April, (which I've already missed since it's almost May), there's no use in me staying here. Right?
That's why I'm currently pondering the idea of relocating to Los Angeles: Where the sun is always shining, people are seemingly happy and the traffic never breaks. And yes, it's full of fake blondes... but hey, I'm a fake blonde so it could quite possibly be the perfect fit.
Since my current sublet goes until mid August, New York has until then to prove to me that this is where I should to be. Otherwise, I might as well live somewhere I actually WANT to live and create a successful career around that.
I need the sunshine, people! Megan doesn't DO snow. Yeah it's pretty and all... but how does one function in it or even feel remotely motivated to do ANYTHING productive?
Plus, I could always just fly back and forth for auditions two months out of the year instead of living here full time.
Yes! I'll be bi-coastal!
It's not like I haven't done it before. Everyone should experience being bi-coastal at least once in their lifetime.
***(Insert joke here)***
Quite honestly, I could have the same career in either place. New York just has a larger emphasis on Theatre.
However, I'm not too sure if I want to keep MY emphasis on theatre.
There's so much more to a career than going down just ONE avenue of it... and being the indecisive person I am... I want to explore as many avenues as possible. To me, Los Angeles just seems to have more options with bigger rewards.
So what do I do? I guess all I can do is be the best Megan possible while I'm here in New York and come August... I'll have to rethink this relocation dilemma.
Until then... It's nose to the grind stone, peddle to the metal... wont stop 'til I get enough... etc...
Gosh, I wish I knew when all this indecision would end... If I did... I definitely would enjoy it a lot more now.
Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I'm a hard core Sagittarius who is always looking for her next great adventure. Or perhaps it's because I lack the ability to entertain myself and use moving around as a weird form of self amusement. Who knows.
Regardless, here's my current dilemma (Which, because I'm using this blog as a form of self-help therapy, hope to have solved by the end of this entry.) So here it goes:
My current dilemma is whether or not to relocate to Los Angeles OR to just stay in New York. And YES, I know I only got here like 3 weeks ago ... but the ONLY reason I'm in New York in the first place is to be on Broadway. That's it. Not to do regional theatre OR a small $200 a week show in some ho-dunk town in New Jersey, and DEFINITELY not to moonlight as a waitress (Which, I can tell you now... I would FAIL at. I simply lack the coordination to balance glasses and plates on a tray or to even memorize what people order. Also, did you know that to be a waitress in New York you must have previous experience waiting tables... IN New York?! So even though I have a college degree... I somehow lack the experience to be a waitress... WTF?! How hard can it be, really? And what makes waitressing in another state less qualifying than waitressing in New York?)... but back to the point...
So that's it. That's what I want to do. Just Broadway.
It's also a well known fact that Broadway auditions come in waves. So they're not exactly happening all the time. Like now, for instance. It's dead. Which is rather depressing for someone who doesn't even want to live in New York in the first place.
Nope. I'm a California girl, born and raised, who's ONLY reason for coming out to the East Coast is to work as a performer. Don't get me wrong though... I'm working my A** off to make my dreams come true... But if there are no auditions until March or April, (which I've already missed since it's almost May), there's no use in me staying here. Right?
That's why I'm currently pondering the idea of relocating to Los Angeles: Where the sun is always shining, people are seemingly happy and the traffic never breaks. And yes, it's full of fake blondes... but hey, I'm a fake blonde so it could quite possibly be the perfect fit.
Since my current sublet goes until mid August, New York has until then to prove to me that this is where I should to be. Otherwise, I might as well live somewhere I actually WANT to live and create a successful career around that.
I need the sunshine, people! Megan doesn't DO snow. Yeah it's pretty and all... but how does one function in it or even feel remotely motivated to do ANYTHING productive?
Plus, I could always just fly back and forth for auditions two months out of the year instead of living here full time.
Yes! I'll be bi-coastal!
It's not like I haven't done it before. Everyone should experience being bi-coastal at least once in their lifetime.
***(Insert joke here)***
Quite honestly, I could have the same career in either place. New York just has a larger emphasis on Theatre.
However, I'm not too sure if I want to keep MY emphasis on theatre.
There's so much more to a career than going down just ONE avenue of it... and being the indecisive person I am... I want to explore as many avenues as possible. To me, Los Angeles just seems to have more options with bigger rewards.
So what do I do? I guess all I can do is be the best Megan possible while I'm here in New York and come August... I'll have to rethink this relocation dilemma.
Until then... It's nose to the grind stone, peddle to the metal... wont stop 'til I get enough... etc...
Gosh, I wish I knew when all this indecision would end... If I did... I definitely would enjoy it a lot more now.
